Not today anxiety! Not today!

  • Do you ever get that feeling of not wanting to go to work? Stay in bed and ring in sick? Let’s avoid people today….
    You wouldn’t think I enjoyed my job would you?

This has been my ongoing battle lately.
For someone who’s always been pretty open about their anxiety, this is still quite hard to write down for everyone to read. One thing I’ve learnt over the years is to talk about it and I recommend this to anyone dealing with anxiety. As the saying goes “a problem shared is a problem halved”.
Recently I have lowered my medication for my anxiety. I thought to myself “I’ve managed before without medication, I can do it again.” I didn’t want to be dependent on medication. To be clear, there isn’t anything wrong with taking medication, I wanted to see how I coped without and it hasn’t helped me. If you need to take medication, take it. Don’t let mental illness be that ‘taboo’ subject. I’ve come to realise that my anxiety is long term. Or at least that’s how I feel right now.

Back story

It started when I was around 18, I’d tend to go through phases and to be honest I didn’t understand why I felt the way I did. I’d say it definitely stemmed from going through a tragic experience at a relatively young age. It was only 2 years ago where I actually sought help.

I’d developed a ‘panic disorder’, which is connected to anxiety. A panic disorder is when you have panic attacks regularly. It can be anything from 2-3 a month, which is how it started for me. Or, it can be several times a week, which is what eventually drove me to see a doctor.

There was a time where I’d have panic attacks and I had no idea what was happening to me. I had one while in bed once! I just couldn’t breath and I felt on the brink of passing out on occasions. In some circumstances, I was told I was being dramatic. You’ve probably read that before. But, people are ignorant and may I say it- uneducated when it comes to mental illness. I’m thankful to the people I have around me now who understand me and are able to at least show empathy, rather than judge or pass unnecessary remarks.

Moving forward

After making an appointment with my Doctor I am feeling slightly more positive. I look forward to being happier again.

I can honestly say that without having anxiety I wouldn’t have discovered the art of meditation or crystal healing. Some people may not believe in a more holistic approach, but it’s really worked for me. It has been so interesting to learn about.

I will tell you more on what I’ve learnt about mediation and crystal healing in a future blog post.

My advice

My advice to anyone reading this, who may have anxiety, or feeling low or even wanting to know how to help someone with anxiety would be:

NOTE- I am in no means a professional in this matter, I am only talking from my own personal experience. Always seek help from a professional. 

•Speak with a doctor, get some advice and information if you haven’t already. That will be a huge weight lifted off your shoulders.

•Talk to your friends. This is so important, don’t isolate yourself because that can sometimes make it worse. I’ve been there!

•Change your routine! Be spontaneous! I encourage you to be more spur of the moment. If you’re doing the same thing day in, day out, it’s bound to start making you feel low.

•Try new things. For me I learnt about meditation and crystal healing. I attended yoga classes. See what works for you. How will you know how you’ll feel, if you never try?

Amethyst relieves physical, emotional and psychological pain or stress. It cleanses the aura and diverts negativity energy. A great crystal to have if you suffer with anxiety.

If you want to help someone with anxiety? Honestly, just be there! Be their shoulder to cry on, be patient, be understanding, empathise with them and encourage them…

If you want to earn extra brownie points?

Do a little bit of research. That will help YOU to understand exactly how your loved one, friend or colleague are feeling.
Be a kind human 🙂
I hope writing this can help someone, even in the smallest possible way. The reason for me writing this blog post is to help others feel more comfortable talking about how they feel. People shouldn’t have to live in fear of prejudice. Help stop the stigma.

…And remember “be gentle with yourself, you’re doing the best you can” – Unknown.

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